It was back in June I first heard these words. I didn’t ditch, I clung on tightly. Back in July I heard those words again, but on that occasion I had nobody to ditch as I was on my own. It was a wise decision. Both times were very special, but both were wonderfully different.
On both occassions I was standing in an esculator on the set of a production that I had no idea would influence my year so much. I’ve spoke about how inspiring I found my visit to Punchdrunk’s ‘The Drowned Man’ a couple of times, design-wise, musically and just generally being a massive creative inspriation to me.
"Ditch your friends, go it alone" spoke to me. I’d never ditch my friends - I have a wonderful set of beautiful, supportive and downright awesome friends, however I’m not someone who has ever been afraid of their own company. I’ve travelled on my own before, gone to shows or films alone - I don’t mind. If there is something I want to do and nobody else wants to come then I generally don’t let it hold me back - life is too short to miss out just because you don’t have a ‘plus one’. I understand the irony of this given the business I’m in, but I wouldn’t be where I am today if I wasn’t indepedendent and a little brave.
To say I’ve worked hard this year would be an understatement. I’ve given every bit of myself to growing my business, and it’s paying off. With that in mind, it’s time for a holiday.
Today I’m flying to New York, alone.
Did I hope that this year would lead to a holiday on my own? Not exactly. Does it bother me? No. I’m so grateful that I am able to do this, both financially and having the confidence to do so.
I have a lot of adventures planned - I have something booked for every day and they’re pretty big things too. The catalyst for the trip was having the opportunity to go to the other Punchdrunk show which I am more than a little excited about. I’ve booked for another totally different immersive theatre experience, a gig of one of my favourite bands of the moment... and something else very exciting (and very brave!) and special which will get a blog post all to itself later on. I plan to spend my days walking and exploring - not so much the typical tourist things, but the food, the vintage shops, parks and a bit of reading. I’ve packed my running gear too, and plenty of books. As well as exploring I need the break.
As I’ve planned for this break, I ended up working over 100 hours last week to clear my order book. I felt guilty telling clients who booked over the weekend that I would need to ship their order after my return, but nobody has said anything other than ‘have an amazing time!’ - it’s daft that I feel so guilty for taking a holiday but I think that’s a common thing when running a small business.
I know this blog post is a little more personal than others, however I wanted to possibly inspire others who were in a similar position to me that it’s totally ok to go on a trip by yourself. The world is out there for exploring, and I have so much to see! If I spent my life waiting for someone to explore it with then I may miss out on so many things.